I am so lazy to blog a full blown response, I’m sorry. So I’ll do the 10 random things that happened recently.

1. I saw this really really really awesome bag over the internet recently and I have never wanted a bag as much as this one in my whole friggin life as a person who doesn’t care much about bags. But why, oh why, does it have to be branded and expensive? Should I just hire some replicator from China and make 10 copies of it? I love it too much. Link here

2. To the ultra worried friend: Don’t think so much. Nothing has changed, I just needed to clear things up over at my side and have my own rest time. Doesn’t mean I don’t msg/sms you doesn’t mean I won’t reply.

3. I’m so depressed over so many things this festive season, so I decided to pig out on chocolate and sweet stuff to make myself happy. Nothing is going to stop me.

4. I watched Avatar and I am even more inspired to enroll myself in NTU for Linguistic Studies. I originally wanted to join because I found joy in analyzing different language structures but the thought of creating your own language is just mindblowing, for me.

5. I owe people money and people owe me money. So PAY UP BITCHES.

6. I recently have a lot of outbreaks on my face. Is it because of stress or are my hands just dirty?

7. My army mates are coercing me back to WOW. I don’t want to but I do. How?

8. I’m on a 1-3months detox mode from alcohol. So no clubbing for now. In the meantime…CHOCOLATE.

9. The Planners I ordered are not here yet, why is this?

10. I really want my New Year’s Eve to be different, but I guess it will be the same like every year. No biggie, I won’t complain.

So much for the holidays. I never thought this day would come when I am engulfed by this situation so suddenly and swiftly. And it had to happen during the festive season where people are supposed to embrace the feeling of forgiveness and just enjoy each other’s company? I do not wish to spoil anybody’s mood with my extremely tl;dr post, so I’ll cut this post up.

First off, off the top of my head, I would like to say something. People can say all they want but the truth is there, set in hard, solid stone. My conscience is as clear as a sparkle in a pony’s eyes. If people like to assume things I will let them because this time I know I’m in the right.

Work has been extremely stressful, to the point that I had to take a breather in the toilet, if you know what I mean. I have previously never found the need to do that, but I’m taking on a mountain worth of work its just not fair to see others around me feeling bored and playing games. I wish that one day I can really be in the office and just casually do my work, just like everyone else.

Over the weekend, I had the most exhausting but fulfilling time of my life. The Korean Concert I was waiting for was finally here and damn the queue was long. It was a huge eye-opener to me and made me realize that the majority of the fanbase in Singapore for Korean bands are little 14 year old girls with innocent fashion sense. Me and my friends are part of that enormously steep bell curve that comprises of old housewives with nothing better to do and young teenagers who caught the korean wave a little too late. It was still awesome though, I believe I out shouted all the little girls when Brown Eyed Girls came out. This was beyond awesome, this was even better than the Lady Gaga concert, I’d dare say.

On the topic of the Korean wave, I am now being a total trend whore. After seeing BigBang and their commercial for LG’s Crystal handphone, I was a little interested and decided to check it out at the nearest Singtel shop with my parents. To my utter surprise my father traded in his spoilt phone and completely offset the whole price of the phone. Damn phone was free. Its a little fragile though but I love it so much now.

Another nice gift I got was the oh-so-awesome Tokidoki earphones from skullcandy. I adore the design but honestly the bass is a bit lacking. It does attract a lot of stares but I love it anyway. I might get the Paul Frank one next salary.

The previous post was deleted because I felt it was totally childish and uncalled for. I don’t need to tell myself those things to make myself feel better about being sorry about myself.

I sure do hope 2010 would be a good year because it has been a while since I felt any year was worth it. The last time I felt that hey, I’m going to miss this year was 2007, my final poly year. I never found myself complaining about school or studying but they pass by just as fast. I really want to believe next year would be a good one, for all of us.

Is it weird for someone to suddenly lose all contact with your best friend? With no explanation, no words. One minute they shared everything to each other, breathed each other’s air, felt what they touched. The next, they were where they first started. There wasn’t any hate involved, they just fell out. I refuse to let it die like that, but it actually did. Its not as if I wanted it to happen, I mean, distance is hardly a problem. I guess sometimes people change and this made me unable to accept his existence in my life anymore. I’m not a heartless person, I’m really not.

I hate to admit it, but friends do come and go. Sometimes I wonder, when everything is gone, where can you go for solace.

Yesterday I planned to go for his birthday party. I came back incredibly exhausted from my band practice and having slept for a little more than 3 hours the previous night, the fatigue was getting to me. By the time I woke up, I couldn’t move an inch and I just gave up on the idea of going. I have rejected him plenty of times before, but now I’m starting to think he has finally got the message. I’m not a heartles person, I’m really not.

I think I have been putting too much of my energy and mind into work. I really need to go out with friends and trash everything out. Everyone is falling apart and soon Christmas will be a passing memory. The faux snow has fallen but no one seems to notice. So technical Christmas has been.

This week’s weekend is another one of those totally unproductive weekends, filled with duty and sleeping to recuperate myself. I just woke up with the worse kind of grogginess and with a sick taste of this morning’s roti prata in my mouth.

I just bought a shitload of CDs on Friday and I can’t wait to listen to them on the road. UNFORTUNATELY my clumsy self lost my iPod and now I am left with my old iPod video, with the pathetic audio jack and lack of complete creative space. Why bring an old dog out of retirement to make it do tricks? It will only be a matter of time before my pay comes and I will be affluent enough (i think) to get meself another iPod. Or…I could wait for another month. Screw that, I can’t that long.

As I am being totally bored and unproductive, I shall introduce you some of the tracks from the CDs that I bought or ordered.

If you know me, I only recently started to have an explosion of interest in the Korean Music scene. However, before all this madness disease engulfed me, I used to only listen to a few Korean artists. One of them was the really awesome Clazziquai. They just released their remix album and I’m so excited to listen to the remixed version of my favorite songs. They released this new track, Ping, which I thought had a genius chord progression, one which could never fail to bring candy to your ears.

ARGH I’m so completely bored! すごく　すごく　つまらないよ～

A close to two weeks after my birthday has passed and I’m finally feeling the numbing blueblackiness of work seeping into my skin. Almost everyone, in fact all the ones that help me lighten my workload are off on their end-of-the-year leave and holiday. That leaves with poor old me. Work is piling up everyday and somehow I can’t feel time pass by any more than a memory.

Recently, I have been losing sleep a lot more than last time. My father thinks I should see a doctor about it, but I reckon he’s just over paranoid. I do, however, sleepwalk into random places, so that might be an issue to make consider.

I’m 13 months into my service and left with another whooping 11 months to go. It sucks really bad when you have a two digit month countdown. The only thing that can keep me from going totally numb and non-responsive are my friends, a couple of drinks and waiting for the next KPop single to be released.

Speaking of drinks, I did the most stupid thing and got myself completely drunk on my friend’s birthday celebration. The most embarrassing part wasn’t me getting drunk, or rather, it’s me getting drunk on someone else’s birthday. I went to meet them at 10pm and by 11pm I’m as drunk as a fish in a sea of beer. I woke up almost 12 hours later, with completely no recollection of what happened the night before. Waking up was one thing, waking up in underwear that was not worn the night before was completely freaky. In addition, my left contact lens was missing and the wrenching sore throat I had the previous night was totally gone. I don’t know whether to feel happy I’m home or to freak out that I managed to return home.

But the most saddest thing was that I was foolish enough to lose my iPod. The only thing that makes me consistently happy. It wasn’t much of a big loss, but its a loss nonetheless. I have extra moolah coming in next month, but it hurts me to think I would be spending on something to replace a lost item.

I think this is getting a little tl;dr.

Long story short, my life is feeling pretty numb right now. I need a new high.

BIRTHDAY POST!!!

again

Birthday Post time!

First off I would like to…

THANK YOU FOR lurking READING MY AWESUM BLOG. WHOEVER YOU ARE, CONTINUE TO READ IT PLEASE, YOU INSPIRE ME TO POST THOUGHT-PROVOKING POSTS.

I only blog for you guys, like srsly.

Birthday celebrations are better than expected, despite not being the ideal celebration, at least I got a little fun out of it. I will post all my presents tomorrow. I like totally busy now due to the endless amount of outings me friends have with me. I’m like a mini-celebrity now. One step closer to Nickhun LOL. Delusional-much.

These few days have been quite tumulous for me, as I try to make the most of my days of leave, its clear to me that other than what I had originally planned, I seriously have no other plans to efficiently spend my time. I’m typing this blog down as lazy meihar sleeps despite my desperate attempts to get her out of bed. Its annoying me at the moment and I refuse to try again.

Its quite a fruitful stayover, I might say. I bought me some really awesome liqour over the shelf in Cold-Storage, which is like a really good place to get alcohol, not like NTUC (low class) People please do try Snowball. Yes, it sounds cute, it tastes cute too.

OMG I’m so bored right now I’m typing jibberish.

Ah yes, I found a topic.

Again, I would like to stress that I’m not trying to get involved, I’m just expressing my opinion over some matters concerning my friends. I really think its bordering on pathetic if SUDDENLY you have a new bff and you start broadcasting it. No, honey, its not telling the world you are over your old bff, its saying you are either; 1. Trying to make your old bff jealous and spiteful, incurring further wrath. 2. Desperate trying to fill the void your bff once held dear to you, like things you did just because your bff did it or stuff that no one else would do it with you. The situation now is really laughable but the atmosphere is too dense we can only do that annoying exhaling with our noses to make it sound like we’re trying to laugh.